i guess i just dont like the feeling of being owned by someone. he.

simple words.

recent condition: raining, starving, and accompanied by Kings of Convenience.

your face suddenly come up when i stare into this blank page. and i just realize how grateful i am to have you by my side now. maybe this is what it feels like, maybe this is what supposed to happen. when you're adoring someone. and he adored you back.

and though i still think it's too soon, but eventually came out as well. aku sayang kamu ay.

omgasdfghjkl

i really am need to be skinnier

so i'm on this study program in bandung.
and really, i cant stop fckn eating.
even my friend admit that.
and my dad too.
and i gain 4 kilos!!!
yeah tell me about it broh.

i keep telling myself to diet.
but..
just cant start.
and yeah i swear to myself now.

diet starts tomorrow. wml!

Somebody That I Used To Know

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Now you're just somebody that I used to know


Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
Part of me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know


But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and I feel so rough
And you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

[x2]
Somebody
(I used to know)
Somebody
(Now you're just somebody that I used to know)

(I used to know)
(That I used to know)
(I used to know)
Somebody

just.. please don't make me insecure about my own body.
god.. how i would love to be skinny...

hai blog.
just want to let you know that there's only 14 days left until National Exams.
wish me luck.
may not be writing anything here any time soon.
but every thing's fine... in my mind... ah whatever.
gtg studying.
bye blog.

too much affection, too much attention.

look at the stars.. look how they shine for you..

i feel like i'm torturing myself.. but i can't stop it.
to look at it.
to compare myself with it.
well, what can i say
i guess when it comes to this thing
it's inevitable to avoid it.
ohyea, i'm a girl
aint this is what girls usually do?
i mean girl like me..
god, this is truly makes me sad.
am such a fool, for keep doing it.
and it finally comes to this,

why do i have a feeling for you anyway?

HNY2012

the fireworks were amazing.
the stars were amazing.
you were amazing, still amazing though.

sudah 2012 nih. cepat ya. kalau memikirkan apa yang bakal terjadi di 2012 bakal seru2 kayaknya. dan keinginan terbesar saya adalah masuk ptn dan lulus SMA.

looking back at 2011........ so many things happened. EH, seru juga loh 2011, at least buat gw.
seru deh, tiap tahun seru kok. ehe gajelas.

sekarang saya ditengah teman2 saya sedang tertidur pulas krn baru tidur tadi abis azan subuh. semoga di tahun ini saya makin rajin shalat ya. amin

udah ya blog mau tidur lagi. bye blog :*

am i a bad person?

blog gw gatau harus crt sama siapa.
jd ya, setiap orang pasti punya rahasia yang gabakal dia ceritain ke siapapun.
begitu pula saya.
TAPI GATEL PENGEN CERITAAAAAA

ok lupakan.

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hah. lg sedih nih. hu.

i hate this part right here.

haha.
i guess this is it huh?
the part when you already win.
the part when you know that unofficially, you already got me.
the part which i hate so much.
because in this part, you don't put any effort anymore.
and the end of this part, will be me, being so pathetic, 'cause i'm expecting too damn much.

dan saya pun capek nangis tiap malam.

i'm drowned into a depression. and seems like no one can help.

and ohyeah. i can't handle the pressure.

woah. really? the L word? woah.

it got me thinking all night.

Calling romeo by Alexandra Potter

.....
So what was wrong?
Well, nothing she could put her finger on. As couples go, she and Will were pretty average been-together-two-and-a-half-years couple. Everything was ticking over quite nicely.
Which was the problem.
Whereas Will appeared to have settled happily into a contend familiarity, Juliet felt something was missing. Romance? Passion? Novelty? Excitement? Juliet wasn't exactly sure.
That's not to say there weren't things about her relationship that Juliet adored. She and Will were the best of friends; they know each other's secrets. good habits and bad habits. They didn't hide anything from each other. But she couldn't help thinking that maybe they'd become too comfortable, too honest with each other.
.....

have you ever wondered what it feels like to have no feelings at all? well i, would love to be in that position just for a moment or what it's worth.
i'm overjoyed. or maybe in this moment, i was.
i'm afraid. or maybe surprised. surprised by myself, by you.
and what really bugs me is the fact that i don't really know what i want.
thinking too much, thinking too much. and too much of thinking.
and again, this has nothing to do with you.
always me, and my crazy mind.

yakan, emang gaenak kalau bangun malam2 bro.

this is all so new
seems too good to be true

hi blog.

baru sampe rumah nih.

grah. saya capek. hehe.

btw harus mengerjakan tugas.

dan jikala waktunya mengerjakan tugas malem2. dan sudah ditinggal tidur, inilah teman saya:

males ngerotate. salahin photo booth. 

iya, masih pake seragam. males ganti. sempat berpikir utk tidur pake seragam. he... gadeng.

hot mocha cappuccino in The Beatles's mug.. 100x emoticon :)

dan hal selanjutnya yg bisa bikin saya bahagia adalah tugas ini selesai.

so.. ganti baju, abisin kopi, iket rambut, cuci muka, solat, tidur.

loh?

gadeng.....

cyaaao blog!